sometimes i wonder if a heart can be burst like a balloon
if i were to stab a pin,ย
would blood come gushing out?
or would it bubble out slowly
and stain my skinย
until it got painted
deepย
crimsonย
red?
sometimes i wonder if a heart can be cracked like a glass
if i were to shove a knife,
would it split open?
or would it shatter slowlyย
and crumble inside my chestย
until it dissolvedย
bit
by
bit?
sometimes i wonder if a heart can be crushed like an orange
if i were to squeeze itย
would it burst suddenly?
or would it deflate slowly
and pulse in my palm
until it dripped
downย
my
arms?
sometimes i wonder if my heart stopped beatingย
but then i feel the pounding in the middle of the nightย
feel the clenches and aches
feel it jump a bitย
every time i hearย
yourย
nameย
i wish it did…
So this is the second free choice that involves hearts? Cool. Totally not crazy here.
The inspiration for this one was probably from the amount of times that I have stayed awake at 3 am these past few months. For some reason, when I try to sleep, I often become hyper aware of my own heartbeat, and I can feel it beating. It’s almost unsettling; to think that this small organ that seems so breakable is what keeps me alive. It’s also supposed to keep a consistent rhythm, but when I concentrate on it, it gets faster and faster, until it races and leaves me almost breathless. But I must be imagining things because here I am, sitting comfortably in my chair, unaware of my heartbeat, typing about it. Hearts are weird, man. Sometimes, they remain calm and idle. Other times, they shock you a bit, as if reminding you how vulnerable you are, you foolish mortal.
Anyways, onto the poem (if you could call it one). It’s pretty self-explanatoryโ the first three stanzas are about different ways that you could physically break your heart, while the last is wishing that it would break itself. Why, you may ask? I’m not sure, either. These are forbidden thoughts, after all, because you aren’t supposed to think about dying and the like, even though it is everywhere. And, yeah; sometimes I really do wonder what would happen if my heart stopped beating. Perhaps then, I’d feel eternal peace…ย
Featured Image: https://imgur.com/t/heart/gj1eaqm by @anaecharri